Some random thoughts....

Many a times life puts us on tests under situations where we are left undecided as to which direction should we take hence, crossroads where we cannot help getting confused as to which path to move further onto. If we finally decide upon a particular path and are successful in our venture, we rejoice with all might, maybe party hard and forget about the few moments of indecision we faced to achieve thus.

But if by any chance, our choice of path fails us and we couldn't achieve whatever we wished for, we fall into a deep pit of frustration. Only a few of us keep ourselves going even after that, getting least affected by these failures and with the same confidence are yet again ready to take up further challenges.

The others on the other hand, get frustrates, whimper in pain, cry with agony, drown themselves in darkness, maybe get drunk to forget the hurt or end up doing something completely offbeat and irrational.

This majority section forgets to see the positive side of situations and lose their confidence with the smallest of hardships.

But among all this, we tend to forget that this is what life is all about!! Ups and downs are an integral part of this bumpy ride just like speed-breakers, pits and highways are that of any road we travel unto.... If just because of the fear of falling into pits we stop traveling, will we ever be able to reach our destination?? The answer is undoubtedly a clear NO...!!! These risks, unpredictability, and uncertainties of life are what make our journey interesting where we keep guessing whatever we gonna see next and that's what keeps us going... Had there been only success and success OR only failures and failures, where would be the adventure that we all keep craving for????

So, from now onwards people, forget all about outcomes and results of your actions and just follow the path your heart leads you to with all confidence you can muster, never caring about hurdles that may throw themselves on your face.

Keep calm and keep moving.

Even if you fail, do not lose your spirit, chill out, party hard, get drunk as you like, dance around and sleep through the night. Get up the next morning, witness the beauty of the rising sun and with renewed energy start afresh. And trust me, you WILL achieve whatever you wished for, maybe even a hell lot better.....

Remember, life's after all a journey into the unknown... It's all just a game of CONFIDENCE and POSITIVITY. So, never lack on these friends and as a famous movie quotes, "Success toh jhak maar ke peechhe aayegi!!"

All the best and lots of love!!

--Nidhi :) 

                     

Treading into the realms of life, Discovering myself.

Even if it’s the last of this life…!!

I’m hurt, I’m lost, I’m dying inside….
I don’t know what to believe, I don’t know who should I trust….
I can’t fathom what’ll happen if anything more goes wrong, I can’t understand why did life even turn this way….!!
Why did you have to do this to me? Why did you have to break me thus??
It would have been better if you had hurt me with the truth…. But instead, you decided to kill me with your lies….
Why couldn’t you believe how much you meant to me? Why couldn’t you see what place you held in my life??
What you managed to see in so many years of being with me was just the tough exterior of me, the mask I made for myself… But despite being one of the very few who had the inkling of the circumstances that catalyzed this face of me, despite being one of those to have seen the softer side of me, why couldn’t you understand my heart, why couldn’t you see the true ‘ME’??
You say, I mean a lot to you; You say, I’m your closest friend; You say, you don’t wanna lose me…. Then why, why couldn’t you trust me to understand you???
Where did I go wrong to earn this slap? Yes, this was indeed like a ‘SLAP’ on my face!!
I’ve lost a lot in my life, I’ve been hurt by many… But still I lived…
I lived and I was even happy cuz somewhere the long lost child within me was still alive, the innocence, the purity still lingered somewhere deep, in my heart, in my soul…. I lived, and I was happy cuz I thought I had some great friends, some very beautiful people around me who understand me, care for me and even love me; I was happy because I thought I had YOU….!!
But oh, this cruel world!! Why can’t they let anyone be happy just for once?? Why are they so hell bent to kill even this tiniest part of me???
I’m stuck now, dying every single moment…. I’m confused, undecided if I should even trust anyone ever again….
I can no more find the strong girl I used to be…. I can no more muster the courage to fight this feeling of emptiness in my heart, to fight this loneliness which is overwhelming my very being, and keep going further….
I did everything in my power to protect myself from this hurt, from this excruciating pain but ah, I admit I failed….!!
And this failure has just broken me inside, sucking the life in me like a parasite….
Oh, how much I want someone to trust me blindly for once, have faith in my love for them… How much I want someone to hold me tight in their warm embrace, to wipe the tears threatening to fall from my eyes, to soothe me of this pain… How much I wish today for someone who would love me for what I am and not hate me for what I appear to be….!!

Let me live my life for once, enjoy this beautiful blessing in all its worth…
Let me feel the warmth of this bliss for once….
Let me be happy without any burden on my heart, without any regret just for a moment even if it’s the last, even if it means the end of this life………

Treading into the realms of life, Discovering myself.

A New Beginning….

A beginning, however small it might be, always is worth something. 

And it has been said, often, that “something is better than nothing”. So, here I am to finally share some random thoughts and ruminations, often a result of extreme happiness, boredom, frustrations and even annoyance at life in general. These are sometimes sweet, sometimes bitter, sometimes worth a lot of thought and sometimes absolute nothings that often plague the vast recesses of every human mind but rarely expressed.  I’m taking it as a chance to improve and polish my writing skills as well as a chance to organize my disturbingly haphazard thought process.

Hence, I complete my first post. Hopefully I’ll keep coming here more often as compared to the previous 2 years.

 Treading into the realms of life, Discovering myself.